I didnt even dare to open yk comment box. haiz. idon wan noe wat she rite i m riting here. cos i gues sometings i donn wan to noe as well. tings that i have exxagerated i don dare to tink. bt they seem to come floating , i m sick. i noe i ncnt fin revision, jus trying to brace myself bt my life is in a total mess. TOTAL. i kp tinking of tings i don wan tink. the lies i have said or js out of exaggeration all Float into my mind. i m perturbed by the truth. Rmbred wat i rd in des blog. The person u cnt lie to is the one u see upon the mirror. u cnt lie. cos uu noe fully well that all those lies are lies.Haiz. i didnt wan to bejave in this amnner. bt some how i have already accustomed to this way ofliving and its like its so embedded into me that it ahs already bcome part of me. Part of wat i ahve to eb. a normal instinct. its like my basiic Intinct is already automatically tuned to A.A. its jus as bad as amanda, i noe. bt i cnt control it animore. I m a freak. yea. kal me tat.